I find this funny...

Sadness...

I miss the "real" world. I mean JBU is cool and I am glad that Heather and I are getting to finish our education. However, after a week of classes it definitely feels like a bubble. What makes it this way? Well, I think the first thing is that while Siloam Springs is still in Northwest Arkansas it doesn't feel that way. I mean there are no bookstores or movie theatres. I feel that culture stops and things literally slow down. The second thing that the "Christian education" atmosphere is very new to me. I am a public school junkie. I am going in to English Education and I absolutely want to teach in public schools. So, I am adjusting. So, why am I sad? I feel very disconnected from church, from culture, from my life. I am being dramatic because clearly I have a life it is just in a weird place right now. I also feel that as far as my faith is concerned I have stepped back in to a world where people just don't get me. I need my Vintage fix more than once a week! I have tons of homework every night and I still need to find a job. I am just kind of waiting to see where and what I need to be doing.

School...Wednesday...Excitement?

So, Heather and I signed up for classes today. We are both excited and a little nervous. I am taking 17 hours this semester and next semester will be a Junior! I am taking some pretty hard English classes which should be fun. Heather is actually taking a class called "Behavioral Neuroscience". I am glad I married a smart lady because the title of that class alone frightens me. Oh well. So, we are both pretty excited about school but at the same time it will definitely require a lot of work. The job search will begin this week. Joy! Heather is going out of town too. Sadness. This is the first time we'll have been apart since we married. I know we'll be fine but still. I am going to spend the weekend with my parents. That will be interesting. Not in a bad way but interesting still. Heather is going to a Women of Faith conference. I know she will have a blast.

On a completely different note: I hate hold music. You know we have to hold could you please not play that "mu-zac" stuff? Or when it plays but cuts in and out. Seriously, holding is bad enough fix the music please.

Curve ball?

So, I have worked at the Christian Book Outlet in Fayetteville for the past five years. It has definitely been an interesting experience. I must say it has had some of the best ups and worst downs. I mean I met my wife there. That is something I never would have dreamed, imagined, or any other thing that I could do. I am without words when it comes to my appreciation of God in letting me meet my best friend there. Also, while working there I had a MAJOR crisis of faith. At one point I wanted to not even worry about God anymore because His followers that I saw on a day to day basis were a bunch of lying, mean-spirited, hypocrites. I know that is harsh but it was my construction of reality. I am way past that now but five years in one place isn't a lot in the grand scheme of things but for a 22 year old that is quite a commitment. This Wednesday is my last day. I have mixed emotions. I am so glad to be escaping "Christian" retail but I have to find a new job in Siloam Springs. I am sad and happy at the same time. A dichotomy of emotions. I know that God has His hand all over my life and if I just listen I know it will be alright. However, it is always easier to stand years ahead of your old self and weigh the decisions you made and see the divine plan. So, I guess as Tara Leigh Cobble says "Here's to hindsight".

So, what is this curve ball? Well, upon moving to Siloam I went to there local Christian bookstore. I am clearly qualified and they are looking for help. I guess I am glutton for punishment. So, I turn in my application and get a call for an interview a while later. I go to the interview and I meet the owner of this store. I am expecting a normal interview. However, once he asked me what church I attended it was all over. I said Vintage Fellowship with pride. He immediately told me that he hated the emergent church. He said that all emergent churches hated baptists. Which I didn't know we were supposed to. I guess Robb and Aaron left that out. He told me that all Pentecostals are heretics. This was all because he believed that he was a filter for truth. That is bookstore should only sell truth. I just found it hard to swallow that this interview turned in to religious bashing. You know Christians are already known for what they hate. When we hate each other what comes of it? I just pray to have a loving attitude in the whole situation. It has been hard. He did say they would be doing call backs this week. I am not holding my breath.

Umm... Life Changes Quickly.

So, I haven't blogged in a while. Why you may ask? Well, Heather and I up and moved to Siloam Springs. This brings up a whole slew of questions. We moved here to attend John Brown University. We are both excited because we are going to be able to finish school together. We really need prayers now that we would be able to get the rest of the loans we need and jobs to support our apartment and everything. We are very excited. We are still going to be attended Vintage because it if a freaking awesome church. I will blog more as now we have permanent internet! Whoo hoo!